I have no excuses...

I have no excuses for not posting for this long. at first not much was happing then we left for vaction, then we came back and i got busy/lazy.
     So I went to DISNEY WORLD! with diabetes! With for me was something big. If i had been at Disneyland that would have been a different story, but more on that later. This had been only my 2nd time at Disney world. And for those who have never been, it is a BIG place. I averaged about 20,000 steps per day. A heathy amount is 10,000. If i remember correctly a normal person takes less then 5000 per day. I know for me 1000 is normal. Plus we took greyhound there so that is a lot of sitting right before walking. And we neither went to morning or afternoon extra magic hours. (and thinking about it my avarage was probably closer to 18,500 steps. WOW.
     To say i went low would probably be wrong, I was low almost the entire time. But if not for this how would i have found out that low+certain rides(in this case Mt. Everest) make me nauseous I almost didn't want to eat anything, but as soon as i got some ice cream i felt much better. That's the only time i didn't feel well during the trip.
Now my train of thought was ruined by my night shot  and snack (225). So i guess now would be a good time to explain why Disneyland is different form world for me. Like i said i have been to "World" all of two times. I have been more times then i can count. I grew up in southern ca. and the last year we were there we had annual passes for Disneyland. We learned a lot about the place, a lot. Of course i havent been there for about 7 almost 8 years, that's about 6-7ish years before i had diabetes. So there is obviously going to be differences. I think I'll still be good because when i try to think about the layout of the magic kingdom i more often then not think of Disneyland. Yeah. Again lost of train of thought so later.

Don't worry, there no vomit

well this will be short because i had something written then the internet crashed on me. Lame. I have a cold probably from non stop going for a week with minimum sleep. It seemed worth it at the time but dosent everything? And i talked about how my sister is afraid of diabetes and how even if she dosen't want it i do believe she has implied she would feel better about it if it was her not me that was diagnosed. I feel the same way, that im glad it was me and not her. I know im resilient enough, but then again she probably is too.
   I know from reading that kids with diabetes often grow up quickly. I feel that i grew up quickly too even though i wasnt diagnosed until i was almost 18. it still changes almost all your ways of thinking. I know it makes me feel like the expensive child. Sometimes it feels that umless we win the lottery (HA) that will always have my medical bills looming over us and still have to worry about affording next weeks supplies and food. I still rather have all that hanging over my head then hers though. Maybe it's just an older sisters way of thinking. Maybe it's my own way of being selfish. Because i still dont want her to have to help me with shots or anything else. Though i have made her get food for me when im low. It still amazes me how much my mom helps.
   I know if not for my mom i would have made it any where. It would be a lot more black and white to me without her. I dare to dream because of her. Love them both. going to go now BYE!!

Forth Of July

Whew, that was a night to remember. But i should start at the beginning now, shouldn't i? We didn't buy any fireworks this year. No big deal. So my sister and i, (sister my be refereed to as 4 not because i don't want to use her initional but because all my sisters initionals begin with A. This is just simpler.) went up a hill to get a good spot to watch some. From it we could see a professional show and someone played the music for it. It started just before 10. The time for my last shot of the day. I was so worried that someone would notice and make a scene or say something nasty. But nope. No one even noticed, and if they did they said nothing.
     Which was a good end to a nice day. We meet a lot of nice people too. We probably would have stayed longer but some other teens behind us were talking about doing something stupid. Said he felt like blowing something up or something like that.  And for the first time in a while i wore ALL my bracelets. On one arm i wear about 30 to 45. I wear this all day every day. One the other arm you will see either a few ponytails, or over 200 more bracelets. and a glove thing because they started turning my arm colors. So now i also take them off when i shower so that i don't get the glove thing wet. It's not hard to take them off just to put it all back on so more often then not i'm too lazy to put them all back on.
    More later. It's dinner time and i think i'm low