Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Anime Nebraskon!

There are many things i can say about Anime Nebraskon. It was the first convention i every went to. It was the first real place i went with diabetes. But let me back up for a second. It all begins at school. Nothing more then a friend from anime club mentioning a convention moving to omaha and asking if i'm going. At the time it seemed more like a dream, actually going. But as a birthday present my dad gets my sister and i tickets. (As a present to me not her) About a week before going at the mall (where i almost began this story) I am reading manga when one of the workers comes up and we end up talking. She ends up bringing up nebraskon. After her friend shows up, we also find out that the random guy in the manga section is also going. That's six people in one spot. Amazing quwinkidink.

    All those good times and the con hasnt even started. When we do finnaly make it, it quickly becomes the best weekend i ever remember having. We already knew the place from being to the resort water park. Which is a really nice place. The people there were just as amazing. Everyone was friendly and entertaining. Of course i don't know why they keep giving them duct tape but thats another story. (lets just say Duct Tape amoeba) all the people i talked to were Great, though i mostly stuck with the people i knew (Just that first year though.) And when two of the staff members did the team rocket motto during the opening ceremonies, I couldnt imagine being anywhere else.
   The pannels, the reason you would go, were so much fun. The was hardly an hours time when i had nothing to do or nowhere to go. Anything and everything seems to happen there. Including Hello Kitty parties to martial arts demos. There is always something for everyone. It's somewhere i would suggest if you can go, you should. Check out there web site.   Google them. If you in the area and are interested in anime and manga, going is not something i've known anyone to regret.

P.S. if i had the chance i would have worn my crochet kimono around to propmote it and enter the contest they had this year for free tickets, but my photographry couldn't make it. she was also my ride around. I mentioned it in my anime iowa post (nebraskons better) Not that i haven't worn it around and talk about nebraskon but, getting free tickets for it would be nice.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I have no excuses...

I have no excuses for not posting for this long. at first not much was happing then we left for vaction, then we came back and i got busy/lazy.
     So I went to DISNEY WORLD! with diabetes! With for me was something big. If i had been at Disneyland that would have been a different story, but more on that later. This had been only my 2nd time at Disney world. And for those who have never been, it is a BIG place. I averaged about 20,000 steps per day. A heathy amount is 10,000. If i remember correctly a normal person takes less then 5000 per day. I know for me 1000 is normal. Plus we took greyhound there so that is a lot of sitting right before walking. And we neither went to morning or afternoon extra magic hours. (and thinking about it my avarage was probably closer to 18,500 steps. WOW.
     To say i went low would probably be wrong, I was low almost the entire time. But if not for this how would i have found out that low+certain rides(in this case Mt. Everest) make me nauseous I almost didn't want to eat anything, but as soon as i got some ice cream i felt much better. That's the only time i didn't feel well during the trip.
Now my train of thought was ruined by my night shot  and snack (225). So i guess now would be a good time to explain why Disneyland is different form world for me. Like i said i have been to "World" all of two times. I have been more times then i can count. I grew up in southern ca. and the last year we were there we had annual passes for Disneyland. We learned a lot about the place, a lot. Of course i havent been there for about 7 almost 8 years, that's about 6-7ish years before i had diabetes. So there is obviously going to be differences. I think I'll still be good because when i try to think about the layout of the magic kingdom i more often then not think of Disneyland. Yeah. Again lost of train of thought so later.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

I'm alive... I think

Ups and downs, but isn't that the whole definition of Diabetes?? Not that long ago i was running higher then normal, especially after lunch. Then i went lower for a day or two and now i'm back to normal. Just in time to go on vacation and have everything be turned on its head again. Sigh...
  I never feel a a loss for words but sometimes i stop to try to convey then in the best way. Right now how im feeling is one of those things. Conventional words like mad, sad, angry, and worried don't seem to cover it. It 's much deeper and more complex then that. But maybe i've done enough with just those words. I want to cry and scream but i don't, because i know none of that will help. In fact stopping for those kinds of things would probably just make it worst. With adds the the above mentioned feeling. It almost makes me wish i was a weaker person, that i would let myself fall down and cry. But i contuine to stand on my own two feet and i refuse to regret it.
   What i really need is someone to talk to. Yes i have friends and they are amazing, but that also makes them biased. I also keep in mind all that my friends have going on themselves so sometimes (ok all the time) I'll hold back what i say. It's bad enough i have to deal with it, why should i make them go through it to. And i just noticed, for all the fact i'm a crybaby, i still refuse to cry in front of them. These are the people i trust the most and i still feel a disconnect with them. Maybe because they all have someone whom they are so close to that not any force known to man can separate them. Someone who shares their soul.
   Lately there has also been this feeling that something (someone) is missing from my life. Whoever you are... Could you please...

Monday, August 8, 2011

ITS MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

hey i found some pics (well technacily my friend found them) of me in my crochet kimono on face book!

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=oa.10150257635782747&type=1

I am picture 199 and 200. Lots of people took my picture that day which made me soooooooooo happy! All my hard word was appreciated. At least as many people who took pictures asked questions and made comments. as i mentioned in the last post more likely then not. Hope the link works!

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Don't worry, there no vomit

well this will be short because i had something written then the internet crashed on me. Lame. I have a cold probably from non stop going for a week with minimum sleep. It seemed worth it at the time but dosent everything? And i talked about how my sister is afraid of diabetes and how even if she dosen't want it i do believe she has implied she would feel better about it if it was her not me that was diagnosed. I feel the same way, that im glad it was me and not her. I know im resilient enough, but then again she probably is too.
   I know from reading that kids with diabetes often grow up quickly. I feel that i grew up quickly too even though i wasnt diagnosed until i was almost 18. it still changes almost all your ways of thinking. I know it makes me feel like the expensive child. Sometimes it feels that umless we win the lottery (HA) that will always have my medical bills looming over us and still have to worry about affording next weeks supplies and food. I still rather have all that hanging over my head then hers though. Maybe it's just an older sisters way of thinking. Maybe it's my own way of being selfish. Because i still dont want her to have to help me with shots or anything else. Though i have made her get food for me when im low. It still amazes me how much my mom helps.
   I know if not for my mom i would have made it any where. It would be a lot more black and white to me without her. I dare to dream because of her. Love them both. going to go now BYE!!

Sunday, July 31, 2011

I'm back from Anime Iowa!

 I had a fun weekend away(which i mentioned in my last post) at an anime con!!!!! I have more fun at the usual con i go to but i got a quote "luxurious" (fake) fox tail (and ears to go with it) that is HUGE!!!!! Like bigger then some small children big. There were lots of people from the con i normally go to though that i ran into. YAY including someone who said i made their weekend (more on that another day, for it is another con). I did also make someones weekend this time to. ( i feel so nice). But this whole weekend i dont think i ever got above 150. I would have to check to be sure. Im too tired from being up late and getting up (semi) early.
    One amazing thing that happened was that on saturday, while waiting for something to start i got food. (Free food which really help when i went low during the weekend) I go sit down and check my BS and take my shot. I hear the person sitting next to me say "yay for insulin" or something like that. i turn to hr and say "I'm glad you know what insulin is" and she tells me that she has a friend that's diabetic. Meeting people yay! That made me so happy, but we still didnt talk about diabetes more then that.
  And for any who may have been there, and saw my crochet kimono i know i had a lot of pictures taken of me and a lot of questions asked. So i decided to post some things here about it.

Q: Did you make that?

A:Yes, yes i did.
Q:How long did that take (to make)?
A: A few months, but i was just diagnosed diabetic, so when i worked on it i worked on it. But it was infrequently and i had a lot going on (obviously)
Q:How many skeins did it take?
A: It took about 13 but for most we could (and were planning on) stitching 10 less stitches on the back panel. I also wanted long sleeves (Good for carrying D stuff and everything else). for shorter sleeves less yarn is needed.
Q: Did you use a pattern?
A:No, i made it up as i went along. I will post the pattern here and try to find a picture of it to post soon. Mostly so the person who i ran into in the bathroom doesn't come after me. Lol.
Q: Isn't that hot?
A: Outside and in certain rooms YES! It felt like instant death. in other rooms though others people were jealous because it was so cold in that room. It was made more for winter.

Some additional info for those who may be curious, but i was not asked.
The kimono was made using ocean colored yarn and the obi was Bonbon. Both should be Red Heart Super Saver yarn. My younger sister did help me with some of the shaping. Other then that i did it all myself. I wanted it to be one size fits all, so we went and made it bigger then it needed to be. Also the pattern may be changed when we make a second one (reversed yarn colors so kimono=bonbon obi=ocean) for my sister there may be changes as we find a better way to do things (like the sleeves).

Here are some words from my sister "a few words..." just kidding. As mention she was a big help in shaping and helping me figure out where i put my brain during this project. She may not have done even a forth of the crocheting but i never would have finished without her. LOVE YOU!

For shaping and sizing the rule of thumb used was to hold it up against your back for the size and  the shaping on the front was designed so that it wouldn't have issues with different "chest" sizes because the kimono was made to be one size fits "all". However if you are making it for yourself you can just drape it over yourself to see if it covers 2/3rds of your chest. (in regards to my sisters brain it was hiding under the yarn :} )

Back panel (make 1)
in your color of choice
Ch. 50 (more or less following the above for children or curvier women) ch.2 (?) turn
Double crochet in each stitch across for around 108 rows. Again more or less depending on how long you need or want it. I was going more for a dancing kimono myself.

Front panels in color of choice (make 2)
 Start by finding the top of your back panel, or by continuing on for the back panel on one side. If done the second way you will not need to attach the two pieces at the shoulder.
double crochet for about 20 stitches. Ch.2 (?) turn and double crochet for about 108 rows, increasing as you go along or that it is almost the same size as the back panel by the time it reaches your hip. when you are done you will need to sew or crochet the two pieces together, leaving room for your arm.
    As a note on kimono the armpit area is left with a giant hole so that you don't over heat and such. You can choose to go more traditional or to completely attach the body together.

Sleeves make 2 in color of choice
(before beginning i would like to say that i do not like how my sleeves are done and so until i can work on it there will be no shaping to these sleeves in this pattern yet.)
 For this part it will also depend on the person, so the longer your arms the more stitches that will need done. Ch. until it reaches it reaches the end of your wrist to the shoulder hem on a shirt. Double crochet a square or rectangle until folded in half, the sleeves reach the desires length. Leaving room for you arms to go through, sew or crochet two sides and either none or part of the third.
   Do NOT sew the third part all the way. This is the side of the sleeve that will be attach to the body, which is left open so that the sleeves can be used as pockets. For any diabetic with pumps, you can make a small pocket for the inside or outside of the body or sleeve to hold your pump if you make longer sleeves.

 If you are unsure on how to attach the pieces, Google has amazing pictures.


My kimono at this time does not have an eri, or collar. simplely make a skinny strip and sew it on for one. I plan on doing this when i get more yarn. Also for my kimono and this pattern has the two parts of the front as one piece. If it is easier for you to make the front panels in two parts please let me know how it worked out. Please send pictures of your kimono to me! My other e mail which i am more likely to check is mewgir@yahoo.com. Let me know how you kimono turns out. I will also try to update this pattern as we make my sisters so that it is easier and make, so more people make one. Now i must pass out cause im tired!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Traveling and Anime Cons!

 I am finally going to do it. I am going to travel with diabetes. Going cross state with some friends to... AN ANIME CONVENTION!!!!! It's five count them 5 hours away driving. Without my amazing mommy there to help me. PANIC!! I'm so excited and happy though. it will be nice to get out of this house. CRAZY people live here. And not the good kind i like to hang with. Diabetes is hard enough without them.
  Anyway back to the topic at hand. This will also be the first time i will be far from back-up supplies. Scary thought. but i have friends that will make sure i bring enough stuff. YAY.  So far i have packed all the clothes/outfits packed. all but my p.j.s which i took out cause i can't run around the house in my underwear. Darn living with unrelated couple and their children.
 That's my suitcase, i have a night bag and a make up bag also. My bag has shoes that i may wear accessories and things that i may need to get to in the car(not done packing it) and the make up bag is holding all my diabetes supplies except for what will be in my purse. Most of whats left to pack is last minute everyday stuff. Wish me luck! Hope the big D behaves!